Friday, September 10, 2021

Not by Choice

So its time to get down to brass tacks. I am quickly approaching thirty and I am still a virgin. I started to care about my sexual status about four months after I turned 29.

When most women have their biological clocks hit them they start angling for a baby. I just want dick to be honest. My bio-clock turned me into a whore but only in the head. Because I can't give this shit away. I feel like I should sit out on the side of the road with a bucket of condoms and my legs wide open ringing the dinner bell yelling COME AND GET IT.

Okay maybe I'm not that bad but I am considering dating websites and craigslist(the mecca for the ultra-desperate).



WOW.

The section above has been in my drafts since 2013. 8 years, 3 months and 16 days ago.  I got a BF shortly after that but he was very religious and also a virgin so not really the best choice for someone trying to lose their virginity. After our last break up in 2016 I moved from FL to TX for the freshest of starts and promptly got sexually assaulted. 

Kinda turned me off sex in a big way for quite a long while. I'm getting to the point where I'm back in the same mood I was 8 years, 3 months and 16 days ago. Theoretically. I had a date recently and the trauma fucked it up royally. Maybe if I embarrass myself a few more times that will encourage me to feel the fear and do it anyway or something.      



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